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Lyrics - Bleed it out

Yeah here we go for the hundredth time,
Hand grenade pins in every line
Throw 'em up and let something shine
Going out of my fucking mind
Filthy mouth, no excuse
Find a new place to hang this noose
String me up from atop these roofs
Knot it tight so I won't get loose
Truth is you can stop and stare
Bled myself out and no one cares
Dug a trench out, laid down there
With a shovel up out to reach somewhere
Yea someone pour it in,
Make it a dirt dance floor again
Say your prayers and stomp it out
When they bring that chorus in

I bleed it out
Digging deeper just to throw it away
I bleed it out
Digging deeper just to throw it away
I bleed it out
Digging deeper just to throw it away
Just to throw it away
Just to throw it away

I bleed it out
Go, stop the show
Chop your words in a sloppy flow
Shotgun opera, lock and load
Cock it back and then watch it go
Mama help me, I've been cursed
Death is rolling in every verse
Candypaint on his brand new hearse
Can't contain him, he knows he works
Fuck this hurts, I won't lie
Doesn't matter how hard I try
Half the words don't mean a thing
And I know that I won't be satisfied
So why, try ignoring him
Make your dirt dance floor again
Say your prayers and stomp it out
When they bring that chorus in

I bleed it out
I've opened up these scars
I'll make you face this
I pulled myself so far
I'll make you face this now

Thanks

and this is my special thanks to 2 very special players and ppl i like to call friends of mine.. with out them it would have takin me alot longer to get to 50.. First Kah1an for all the hunting time in resistance. he saved my butt more than once. one of the most Awesome ppl i know on Ken server so much love and appreciation to him..
Second Swiftwind who with out his NB on 34 i would have died several times. My Partner and my friend. Ive known him for a few years. hes hunted with me almost everyday somehow i could never keep hin in resistance tho.. i think its a tramatic place for him.... anyway. Cosa and Sk8 for the few hunts in resistance. Cainna and Kirby (kirby still sucks tho) more resistance hunts.. Lucky 21 for the PL spot he knows what i mean. and thanks to anyone that i left out.. this screen shot is my boys tho my Click my Pose'

LVL 50!!!

so i did it i succeeded in getting there i had a little help from some friends, they took me hunting to places i didnt wanna go alone. but i made it YAY!!! i played with a few polys missed the bapho one but thats ok i got the greater mino its better for the camera anyway.. so heres the screen shots hope u have enjoyed next stop LVL 51!!!

COMMING SOON TO A BLOG NEAR U!

o.o, can u guess? Could it really be?? Is it true? yes yes yes it is... Muddy is about to get her first lvl 50 char. after 4 yrs of game play im about to do what i thought was impossible for me.. (i blame my short attiontion span) get bored or frusterated with a char, sell items and delete that has been the norm for the last few years. but yes keep watching its going to happen VERY soon.... Muddy Meter is at 94% so looks like saturday might be the the BIG DAY.. I know 50 might not mean anything to some of u but to me it means a lot. like i said 4 yrs and no lvl 50 o.o.. so here goes!!!! wish me luck!!!!

HA HA Monitor44

The monitors are watching u o.o!! after a mop thiefin battle we had to resort to callin a monitor. and who should appear MONITOR44!!! hunting tos first floor we had a battle with LittleBioman, but for my readers the situation HAS BEEN resolved ya... i so hate drama. anyway heres some screen shots of that my group and Our monitor that came to help. and warned the players for us v.v THank you monitor44, oh after this happened i was solo in the outer area of tos. and Littlebiomans girlfiend came, they are from Taiwan (sp) anyway she tried very hard to communicate with me. i hate the language barrier in this game. i could understand the broken english she was telling me. but she couldnt understand me... bah. so in the means of peace i made a few whispers to some ppl that i knew to see if any one spoke Taiwaneese.. (sp) i managed to find someone and he came to my area. Explained that we were upset about mop thiefing and stealing and that everything would be ok and forgiven if that stopped. she appoligized repeatedly. She sought out a few members of my blood pledge. She appoligized to them. she was very respectful and kinda after this and still is. sometimes a little patience is all ya need i guess. or a translator...

MY CASTLE II

OK, so those that dont know Hiene Castle is owned by me. I have a very small bp. mostly some close friends of mine I AM NOT RECRUITING! Lucky21 is so funny one min hes there with his mighty swords and then the next he comes wandering in blazin with a bow o.0!!!just thought it was funny!

LVL UP SWIFTWIND!!! W00T!!!

I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO proud to be apart of this one. after a year of grinding at this lvl. we finally managed (after numerous lag spikes d/cs that i saved him threw yeah thats right a lvl 49 elf saving a Natures Blessing elf) to get him to lvl 52 im so proud v.v. swift has been an UBER friend of mine for many years now. and it feels good to know that i helped him get to his lvl. Oh did i mention that hes using my bow o.o!!!! Yup the Muddy Specail Super Rocket Launcher!!!! hehehehe so he lvled with my help and my bow o.o hmmmm maybe i should have just done it for him??? LMAO just kidding, he did alot on his own while i was in resistance. but hunted with me every chance we got!! Im so happy for him he reached a new goal.. and u know what i forgot to ask him o.o where he added his stat too. he was tossed up betweenhis int and his dex o.o!!! i hope he went with more dex o.o anyway enjoy the Screenshots!

ResistanceII

So me HeroStinky i mean Kirby and Cainna are all down in resistance we decided to see if we could make it to this area, and we did now look closely, tell me if u see anything that is out of the ordinary.. keep looking wheres the elf o.o, OH there she is in the succubus poly wielding her newest toy +8 Bkat. I like to think i did fairly well down there like that. but i tell ya something the swing rate really blows on that poly. ANYWAY we managed a drop gloves of the pretender king i do believe i missed a screen shot there but its still cool that we got something =>

Mr BIg Bad Lucky21

i caught lucky with a booooowwwwww!!!! w00t muddy on mage, INVISABLE snuck up on lucky and took this random pick ha ha ha ha. I tell ya it sure dont look right with him runnin around in this poly!

Rosie

i didnt have very many pictures of rosie i wish i had more to make this better, but its the best that i can do with what i have. I still dont think anyone really knows what a kind wonderful person she was. But thats thier loss, anyone that knew her knows how she was and those people were her true friends..

P. Diddy, Faith Evans, 112 - I'll Be Missing You

what to say, this song recently came to mind.

~sigh~

I just want to say that from now on i refuse to let anyone in my heart. those that are there already u are safe. but the walls have been re-built and the fences reposted. i hurt to greatly to let it happen again. Rose was a true friend and nobody will ever know how much she touched my life. i also want to say to those that i have been talk to about this thank you for listening, My suspisions still stand, but im not going to pursue them anymore, i give up and i quit with that. as for her i dont want to talk about her anymore. it hurts me in to many ways. I miss her hello's and converstations, along with many other things. i dont care anymore about anything really.everytime i care about something it falls apart and im not gonna put myself threw that anymore..

This Is Fun

Ok so this is just some fun to break the grind for a little while this wasnt even a siege it was more or less a turn over of castle control, so the bots wouldnt get it.. anyway this is still fun for me cuz i never had anything like this..

Lvl up Cainnatoo

Since all of us OSX/X11 ppl lvl in our house, heres the proof u were lookin for! WOOT gratz Cainnatoo lvl 50!

Lost

Well i lost a very near and dear friend, she will be missed always. i need to put some words to how shes touched my life. she proved to me that my life isnt as bad as it could be. she showed me that a game is after all a game, she cheered me on when i thought i couldnt go any further,she shared hopes with me dreams with me laughter and tears. I will never forget the times we had together good and bad. the times she stood up for me when i felt small and helpless. they way she could make me smile when i thought i couldnt or didnt want to. what can i say besides shes was the kind of friend that everyone dreams of but half the ppl never get. she was the kind of person that would do anything for u if she could. she was one in a zillion a truely beautiful diamond one that shined so brillantly it would blind u. she will and always be with me. in my mind and in my heart and in my soul. she runs deeper than anyone will ever know. i'll miss her everyday and for her i will reach my goal. the one i say i will never do and i will know that i did it as she would have told me and helped me to..

i love her and will miss her dearly.

Rest In Peace
I hope u didnt suffer